Wow, great for you! But here’s the deal: My fucking blog is not for you. I don’t give two shits if you want to lose weight or not, my blog exists because I AM LOSING WEIGHT. The sooner you get that through your cranium, the better. But don’t you dare accuse me of insulting any body type here because I never fucking did. Neither did I say that becoming skinny is the only way to be healthy, or that fat people can never be healthy. Hell, I’m fat and I’m healthy, and I have legit blood tests and medical exams to prove that. However, I’m also on the verge of becoming unhealthy because my results are on the far end of the “healthy range.” And why is that? Because I’m fucking overweight. Now I hope you’ll understand if I heed my doctor’s advice to lose weight instead of listening to your ignorant delusional opinions. You know what, let me tell you a cozy little story: Eight years ago my father died of a heart attack caused by diabetes. The ironic part was that just a few months before that happened, he started changing his lifestyle. He quit smoking, ate better, and started easing into a workout routine. We never saw the heart attack coming because he was already making positive changes. What we failed to realize is that he already reached a point where the damage was done and there was no going back. I’m a complete idiot if I don’t learn anything from that, hence, the weight loss journey, which does not fucking concern you.
It drives me up the wall how matter-of-factly you say I hate myself. Oh yes, of course! It’s because you know me personally, and for years, too, right? Or is it because you’re with me every single day, and I share my thoughts with you, and I confide in you? Or is it because we’re internet bffs who share everything with each other despite the fact that we’re on opposite sides of the planet? No? We’re not any of those things? WELL THEN YOU DON’T FUCKING KNOW ME. Quit making assumptions about my life because you don’t know the first thing about me. I should tell you, I have a gorgeous sister who’s thinner and prettier than me, and has a sunshine+rainbows personality that makes me seem like a comic book villain in comparison. Boys and girls alike flock to her, she probably has thrice more friends than I do, and it’s an accepted and known fact in the family that she’s the pretty one. Now, if I hated myself and had to grow up alongside and deal with that, I’d be a wreck right now. But I’m not, because I fucking love myself and know that although I’m not pretty, I’m smart and I have talent. So when strangers on the internet presume to know things about me and go so far as to berate me for hating myself even when I don’t, it makes me want to elbow said strangers in the face, or, in case of impossibility of face-elbowing, write a really long response to said strangers’ messages to make them realize just how much of an asshole they are.
To be honest, I think a lot of you body-positive blogs are just fat-loving, thin-hating blogs in disguise. You go about with this “all bodies are beautiful” preaching but the moment someone expresses a desire to lose weight, you swoop down like vultures and attack that person with accusations of self-hatred and body negativity, as if every person out there who wants to change their appearance is doing so because they hate the current one. By ‘all bodies’ I’m sure you mean ALL BODIES, not just what you find desirable or convenient. It’s either you accept all bodies, including thin ones, or just altogether spare us from your selective body-positive bullshit. You know now that I think of it, it’s really strange that you feel insulted and degraded when other people try to lose weight. Unless those people go to your blogs and explicitly tell you that you MUST lose weight too, I don’t see any reason why those people’s choices should affect you. When I was at my heaviest and not trying to lose weight, I knew some people who were in the process of losing weight, and I didn’t feel offended nor degraded. So please enlighten me why you sincerely think that the decision of another person on the internet to lose weight insults and shames you when it has nothing to do with you at all. Basically this is what you’re saying: YOUR weight loss is insulting, degrading, and shaming ME. Now that doesn’t make much sense when you hear it like that, does it?
P.S. To the eight other people who sent me messages so similar to this I could’ve sworn you had a cyber meeting before going to my ask box, this is for you, too.
P.P.S. Please, glowing-sole, it’s LOSE, not LOOSE. Please get it right, you’re not six.
(LOL I had every intention this afternoon about being graceful and calm about whatever hate mail I receive but I read this and all that went straight out the window. I don’t even want to know how many times I said ‘fuck’ in this reply. If I had the Darren Criss I’m in a rage AVPM gif now would’ve been the perfect time to use it. I’M IN A RAAAAGE!)